'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even

they say bad things happen for a reason

but no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

...

i will be okay. even someone did bad things.

i always understand, am i? --i forgive.

but i cant always pretend to forget what someone did even they said sorry.

because

they do it again and... they never realize.
(or should i always pretend and forgive?)

no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

but no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

I forgive but I know he will try to make this like it is my fault

sometimes he loves me but sometimes he means

I love him but I never want to have this kind of relationship

I see people can treat his girlfriend very nice and proud to have her

why you cant be like that?

it's okay ^^

BUT

FIVE MINUTES AFTER, I REALIZED IT SUCH A WASTE TIME TO WRITE THOSE THINGS.
IM NOT IN THE BROKEN HEART SITUATION
I REALIZED THAT I WORTH TO BE LOVED
THERES MORE AN IMPORTANT THING I HAVE THAN WAITING
DOES PEOPLE WORTH TO BE LOVED? SO CALM DOWN.
YOUR TIME WASTED.
WHEN SOMEONE DOESNT FIGHT FOR YOU, YOU FIGHT FOR HIM, JUST LEAVE THEM ALONE. IF SOMEBODY LOVES YOU, HE WILL SHOW YOU TO THE WORLD. YOU DONT HAVE TO CRY AND TRY TO FIND OUT. BECAUSE HE WILL LET YOU TO SEE.

enough to say, am i insane? 
no, i just did whats the best for my life. for us.
we actually still 20 and not good to say "us"
we can only hope
so, do what is the best for your life, i would be happy for you :) <3
and someday, i will find my John (idk why im smiling)

(i know now, because im talking to you, Savannah)