HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY

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So this time I would like to write how's my birthday going. For every year I keep writing this and they are becoming more surprisingly the blast birthday ever. I cried. This is my first time I guess to cry in front of people. 

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Yes, I try to remember what had happened through out last year. 20 was the year of mood easily swings. I often got angry but honestly, I don't want to. It wasn't easy to face the reality. It's a bumpy road full of daunting obstacles. However, as I underwent it, I realize how much I had grown into a much sincere, stronger, and wiser self. It's always like that, isn't it? The thing that doesn't kill you will only make you thrive.

I'm so grateful for what I have right now. And I can't wait to write down a lot more in this new age. Thank you, friends, for being here when I almost forgot how kind they are. 

Teruntuk semua ucapan-ucapan serta doa nya dari kalian semua yang gak bisa aku capture in satu-satu. Terima kasih untuk post an di media social kalian, untuk Edha yang udah ngepost foto aku di path beserta doa-doa dan harapan yang terbaik buat aku, untuk Ciwaw yang udah ngepost foto aku di Instagram beserta kata-kata lucu yang bikin inget jaman cabe kita haha, untuk Indri yang udah buat khusus tulisan mengenai aku di tumblr nya [HERE]. Terima kasih banyak ucapan serta doa kalian ya. 

Terima kasih untuk kiriman video nya dari Dias, Ardi, Meula, Reri dan Ranie, kalian emang dari dulu gak pernah absen ya! Video nya ada diatas bisa dilihat hehe. Untuk Juwi yang ngucapin pertama kali wakakak, temen kalo aku di Tangerang yah! Untuk Rayi yang... yah emang dari awal banget selalu inget, terima kasih ya. Sama untuk Kevin yang udah seperti ade sepupu sendiri. Dan temen-temen lain yang take it personally ngucapin ke aku, semoga doa yang terbaik pun untuk kalian aamiin (walau doa gak mesti di hari ulang tahun doang, tapi tidak apa-apa ya).

Paling spesial untuk orang yang hadir di hari nya aku, buat aku emotionally ya sampai menangis tiba-tiba. Buat Betha yang malemnya aku udah bete kesel parah gak diucapin sama dia, buat Jurin yang lagi chat-chat an tapi bilangnya mau di rumah aja, untuk ade nya Ninda yang sempetin mampir, untuk Ninjels yang....ah itu udah gak bisa di deskripsiin lagi yang tiap tahun selalu nyiapin khusus buat aku. Makasih juga untuk Lulu yang dateng ya karena Ninjels haha makasih ya. Riandy yang selalu ada disamping aku bahkan satu harian penuh di tanggal 9 aku bersama Riandy. Makasih untuk petualangan penuh suka cita gembira luar biasa.

Yang paling seneng untuk ade aku super cuteeee yang udah nyanyiin sealbum lagu happy birthday lewat videocall. Makasih ade nya mbaita super cute kesayangan dan segalanya. Makasih juga untuk Bagas yang ngucapin di Path, wkwk. Bermakna bung. Makasih untuk doa nya dari keluarga aku, papa mama ku, om tante dan semuanya. I love you.

365 IDEAS OF HAPPINESS

An interactive coloring journal (emang lucu bet, lucu parah, bisa di hias hias gituw buku nya). Karya Nurilla Iryani dan ilustrator nya yang gak kalah hacep tuh Puty Puar. Gue udah kepo instagram doi dan emang doodles nya ucul ucul bet. Buku ini gak kalah hits karena ada instagramnya jugakkk :") @365ideasofhappiness sama kaya judulnya. Gue gak di endorse padahal tapi emang sukak banget secara sekilas gue liat liat tuh udah suka.

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Haiiii whatssup guys! *intro* Welcome back! Jadi kali ini aku, asik aku, mau nyeritain satu harian aku ini tuy ngaps aja haha. Sesuatu yang patut aku kilas ulang soalnya. Berawal dari bangun pagi yang siang (around 8am) terus ngecek handphone. Yang seperti biasa gak ada chat dari Riancul wqwq :)) eyyy engga ding, biasanya kalo Riancul yang bangun duluan, dia sukanya nelfon. Terus pas nelfon aku omelin. "Riancul ngapain sih nelfon ah" // "Ngapain lagi nih. Cila bangun kamu gak shubuhan" Yagituddey suka gaje emang, kan masih belum sadar gitu huhu jadinya dikira Riancul gangguin aku bubski :". 

Ok next. Bangun tidur gue (eh ini sok asik aja ya, bebas mau aku apa gue huahaha) bersihin kamar sebisanya. Ngitungin uang buat jaket KKN yang kebetulan untuk Desa gue, gue yang koordinir. Abis itu kepikiran untuk buat jebakan Riancul karena belum bangun. Dengan belum mandinya, gue ke warung wkwk beli beli rahasia. Iyap rahasia. Terus di kosan gue minta waktu 30 menit sebelum Riancul datang untuk menemani gue sarapan. Dan pas Riancul tiba... Doi terlihat senang, hehe, walau gue sebenernya malu ngelakuin ini. Terus aku difoto Riancul yang katanya jago foto itulowhh. Ini hasilnya..

Bagus kan gue nya :))) jago bet fotonya yah. Fokusnya itu loh haha. Tapi gpp asal doi seneng gue ikutan seneng. Eh enak. Iya gak? Setelah itu... pulang. Gue di kosan ngapain ya, semacam gak penting siih ini. Terus sore nya jam 4 gue minta Riancul untuk nemenin gue beli cable protector "Cila kok tumben mau beli cable protector?" // "Sebenernya itu alasan ajasih biar bisa jalan sama Riancul". Sekilas percakapan kita waktu menaiki eskalator (eiscalator or whatever -_-) Dan ini hasilnya cable charger iphoe gue setelah gue lilit dikosan malemnya.

Lama yo itu ternyata dan gak cukup :") haha haha haha sampai gue chat si Lala "La gak cukup" terus dia bales "baryaws" udah gitu aja. Setelah kita dapet cable protector nya, kita makan, makan keju. Duduknya hadap-hadapan seperti kebanyakan orang-orang yang makan disana. "Orang-orang dudukny pada hadap-hadapan ya" Kata Cila ke Riandy. Eia Riancul pake long sleeve hitam, aku suka. FYI, Riancul itu kebalikan banget sama gue haha, gue pendiem, gue simple dan gak hyperactive, gue dewasa :))))) *dan abis ini keliatannya ada yang chat gue gak terima nih*. Selagi nunggu, seperti biasa pada gak mau saling kalah main handphone.

Taraaaaa. Hitam-hitam kaya mau dangdutan. Meanwhile gue dianggurin karena doi sibuk ngecek line wkwk. Gak ada obrolan penting karena kami sama-sama menikmati keju nya. Rata-rata hanya obrolan basa basi yang berujung dengan tawa tawa pecah nan gaje dari gue. "Eh Riancul diliat liat mirip Bena Kribo yang sekarang udah gak kribo ya #eyakkk". Eh hashtagnya salah, #oyakkk. Udahannya ke toko buku beli komik bulanannya si bocah ini :) sayangnya komiknya gak sempet gue foto. Ditengah keasikan liat-liat buku sendiri, tiba-tiba menemukan buku eyecatching yang gue bilang diatas ituwwww. Dan tiap ada buku yang mengenai 'bahagia' selalu keinget multiplechat geng gue. Alhasil Riancul juga tertarik dan dia mau beliin dulu :)) bukunya asik. Bisa dicoret-coret. Bukunya buat kita yak Riancul <3 bukunya udah aku coret-coret duluannnn yaw hihi

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Hari ini intinya menyenangkan. So does hari-hari kemarin dan hari-hari lainnya. Karena kebahagiaan itu dibuat sendiri, yakans?

2010 2015 well, we made it!

"fix ya 20 10 2015 21.10?" He said.

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Still staring here about 10 minutes and don't know what to write first. All is amazing. You are cute enough to make this day wonderful. I don't need you to see this I just want to describe how happy to be me! For all the grateful that God has given me this way, i'm so thank to God. My heart was beating fast and i made a move because of you. You are not so kind and how do i say cuek? Yap you are far from the predictable guy. But as you see, I just love you. You are just being you not someone else. I didn't even know you tried to get my attention, i didn't feel anything, sorry :p But till one fine night, Oct 18th in so early morning, you said the unpredictable words that i never imagine the words will come out from your mouth. From that time I realized all the things we did, I noticed myself throw-back-thing a lot. Yeah, I found someone that make me fall in love. I don't know why. We just did, right? You don't need any reason to fall in love. But we just did. 

Last, I hope the best for everything happens tomorrow. See you R! 

KODALINE

Hey whats up guys? Looks like I have a lot of free time if you want to know, i'm filming myself recently, and i'm enjoying what i'm doing. Cila did something crazy, my friend said. I don't know it was fun. My friends oftenly getting annoyed with me, sorry, I entertain a lot of people. Like today I had a prank call game in Arda's sanctuary. She just watched me did that stupid thing. Well the first one I called is Betha.

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"Hallo Betha kamu di mana?" / "Di rumah Cit kenapa?" / "Bet aku lagi di jalan, boleh ke rumah mu gak?" / "Ada apa Cit udah malam" / (well it's night already, around 9 pm) "Aku mampir sebentar ya, aku... kebelet eek" / "Hah seriusan?" / "Gak tahan lagi kebelet banget" (I laughed too much till I can't clearly finish my words) / "Toilet rumah ku lagi mampet Cit aduh seriusan deh gimana ya" / "Gpp udah kebelet banget ini seriusan mau eek" / "Di pom bensin aja sana beneran lagi mampet" / then I laughed again so hard till my stomach hurts "You got my prank call sorry haha bye" I ended up the phone. I still can not stop laughing, that was so funny. Then I continue to Riandy. First calling he was rejected my phone and he said "friends here" but I called him again. He answered!

"Hallo Ndi lagi dimana?" / "Di kosan kenapa" / "Gw lagi di jalan, mampir ke kosan lo ya" / "Ngapain?" / "Gw kebelet... kebelet eek" (then I laugh really hard) "gw ke kosan lo ya sumpah gak tahan lagi" / "Heh ini kosan cowo mana bisa" / My stomach hurts at that time so I ended up the phone.

It was crazy and fun two things I did and made my night. Really. I'm so sorry to both of you, I just like you guys and you are awesome :') Sorry sorry haha.

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Well BACK TO KODALINE as my headline as my title post. I just watched them for the first time and I really like.. Wait I need to say this, "I LOVE YOU GUYS" "YOU DID A GREAT WORKS IN MUSICS" 

Blogs, you have to watch All I Want music video part 1 and part 2 (I need more part seriously) I cried. I know I know I cry a lot. If you really following and reading my blog, I cry for every little thing like, musics, movies. I always posting stuff that I really think I need to remember them in the future. So yeah. Wait I have another one. You have to watch High Hopes by Kodaline too. I cried. Trust me they really make an awesome music videos.

Today - Willamette Stone

SAY WHATTTTT. It's been a long time I haven't shared myself here. I currently just posted a writing (not so importantly but good for your health) about what i felt. felt not feel, because it's past. I'm so happy I know the truth andddd thank you for saying bad things about me. By the way, instagram is being boring lately. Twitter is forgotten but blog stay. Yeay I love blogging. I'm not really care if people hate me just because reading my blog. Some said, "jangan menilai orang hanya dari cerita orang". I just know they are bad and being trapped. I'm so happy I win. 

I have a nice friends, you called them nice when they remember you.

Begin Again

I spent my saturday night by watching this movie. Nyesel banget kenapa baru nonton sekarang! The story was really really good, you know how much I love Mark Ruffalo, like he was my first crush haha I wrote about him in my very old post, you can check it. And I love Adam Levine, totally adore him very much. But sorry not sorry, I hate his performance here. Film ini, seperti berada di dua cerita, satunya Mark satunya Adam dan Keira is the point of this whole movie. Super Keren! I wanna write about Keira and Adam first. Like any others couple, they did sweet stuff. Terkadang tuh bikin bites nail sama teriak teriak so sweet. Adam nya penyanyi dan Keira ini songwritter sekaligus bisa nyanyi juga, tapi lebih di balik layar. Sampai Adam terkenal, punya nama nya sendiri, recording, tour, dan segalanya kacau. Keira is a sweet girl yang sangat sayang sama Adam. Jadi pas ditinggal Adam tour ke LA, Adam jatuh cinta sesaat gitu deh sama seorang gadis bernama Mim dari label recording ini. Ketika pulang dari tour nya, Adam mengasih unjuk lagu barunya yang terinspirasi dari perjalanannya di LA. Yap, she realized that she got dumped with her boyfriend. I can't deny this hurt feelings. Ditambah sebuah lagu yang dia buat untuk mengekspresikan kekesalannya. "and you have broken every single rule, and i have loved you like a fool."  Scene nya pas banget bikin sakit tepat di hati. Gak percaya? Nonton aja *crying*

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Keira and Mark. Awalnya 2 orang strangers dimana Mark tertarik sama Keira yang melihatnya pertama kali performance di cafe. Mark seperti menemukan orang yang tepat. Malam itu dia baru saja dikeluarkan dari label recording nya. Ketika bertemu Keira, dia ingin membuktikan kalau gadis temuannya sesuatu yang berharga. So they had a deal and made their album. Lama-lama chemistry diantara mereka mulai terjalin. Ditambah aktor-aktor lain yang bikin adegan demi adegan makin seru dan... lucu! I love it. Sampai akhirnya mereka sukses dan Adam datang kembali. What the hell seakan diaduk saat nonton bikin kesel sendiri. Emang gitu ya laki-laki? Jangan berharap untuk melanjutkan nya kembali, karena kamu telah melupakan gadis yang benar-benar selalu ada dan sayang banget, tapi dilepas gitu aja. So, mari kembali dari awal, start a new life. Happy Begin Again **very great movie**cheers**

Satria

So many questions I got, bisa kenal sama dia gimana caranya? Kalian deket dari kapan? Udah berapa lama? Kenapa bisa suka dan akhirnya jadian?

No need any longer to answer (but need a couple times to realize that I love him, hehe). My baby is so careeee, gak cuma ke gw, tapi ke semua ‘kayanya’. Mobilitas tinggi. Sangat sangat bertanggung jawab dan amanah. Jangan ketawa lu :) terakhir, paling baik diantara yang paling baik (subjektif/objektif?) udah gitu sabar banget dari awal kita kenal yang tadinya gw nengok cuma sekilas-kilas aja sampe sekarang gak bisa berpaling even 5 minutes!! Hell! Dia itu orang paling lucu dan paling malu-maluin yang pernah gw kenal, serta panikan sedunia. Tapi gak nurunin charisma nya kalo lagi panik, huehehe. Kalo dia udah ngomong “HEH” gak nahan banget kakak, pake idgham soalnya dan gw paling gak kuat untuk gak ngikutin balik ngomong “HEH”. Kapan-kapan gw rekam.

Ohiya, panggilan favorite buat doi dari gw kalo abis makan itu Kebulsky, kadang pake embel-embel My sexiest kebulsky ever (biar oenjoe; read:unyu). Gak cuma Bonnie yang punya kepanjangan, berotot dan berani, tapi Kebulsky juga, kebo dan gembul, haha. Sumpah deh :( walaupun makan nya banyak, tapi perutnya datar, tapi tetep aja gembul, HEH! Wkwk.

Dulu, sebelum jadian, doi suka mandangin gw dari jauh (ya kan~) tapi sekarang mah boro-boro, selalu nanyain berulang-ulang di-tiap-sms, “kamu lagi di mana?” mbok ya aku gak ke mana2, Cinta :(. Dan dia selalu kzl kalo gw gak cek hp untuk menerima dari pernyataan dia yang bilang, “gak usah ke siniii, aku aja yang samper kamu.” But, ive said, im on my way Bebz -_- How could I check my phone when im on my way?? Dan doi pernah jawab kzl, “kenapa sih kamu selalu aja gini, gak cek hp nya dulu, langsung pergi.” Hihi kalo udah manyun gitu pingin dicubit aja mulski nyaw.

Dia orang paling beda coy dan terima kasih sudah buat saya jatuh cinta :) Happy 18, Maluve. I love you.

What Is Your Dominant Intelligence?

The answer is...

Verbal-Linguistic Intelligence

Your dominant intelligence is the verbal-linguistic intelligence. This means you have well-developed verbal skills and vocabulary and are sensitive to the sounds, meanings, and rhythms of words. You always notice grammatical mistakes when reading or writing something, and tend to think of appropriate solutions. You most likely have (or want) and book collection, and maybe even a collection of quotes and sayings that you remembered over the years. You enjoy puns, rhymes, riddles, and word games. You probably enjoyed English class. You enjoy reading, writing, and foreign languages.

Some jobs that suit the verbal-linguistic intelligence type are:
Writer, Lawyer, Editor, Public speaker,Novelist, Journalist, Comedian,
Philosopher, Psychotherapist, Politician, Teacher, Actor
That's so trueee!! There's no engineer in there, haha. It's your turn :p 

New and Hot.

What's new? Askfm, askfm everywhere. You open your twitter, and see people share theirs. The most sucks is they have a long write and then share it to twitter which has only 140 characters and you know what happen next. Me just like, "gantung banget jawaban lo." Well, I have askfm (just have) not playing in it, the reason why I made that account because twitter itself, hufff, friends of mine are currently share their answers like I've told, and I just wanna know the answer till end (.) Let's talk about askfm first, you will have a question from others, you can hide your name, and then that people will answer your question. Got excited? I'm not really interested and how do I say, I'm writing about that! LULZZ (re:lol). I have blog since 2010 and blog just like my room, the comfortable place to escape, (media) good listener and perfect way to save moments. It's funny when you see your old-posts and your reaction will be: EWWH is that really me? And than you will laugh because your stupidity in the past. That's i called a-m-a-z-i-n-g. I guess we have a different perspective. Um let's talk about other. As you know, I already finished my study in the 4th term and it means that I will have my 3rd year! I have to study harder, note to myself as always in the beginning of each term. I wanna be rich, have my own money, driving myself, get dresses, looks skinny, marry with a guy whom I love (love each other), living happily, buy a house with a big garden, that's my dreams. I wanna travel around the world or at least, London. Bring my parents into the happiness. See my brothers have a fab live. And call myself as a Kadarshians. WOW. We live once, make it worth. Finally, let's say "amin" together. Amin. Thankyou and goodbye. Love you guys.

I hope God would bless me with an even bigger heart, so I could love you even more.

Another book by Dahlian, I read in less than 4 hours, the amazing 364 pages of their story, Tania and Rezza.  It’s not like an usual romance-fiction-book for me, I’ve learned many things. And, the-after-effect is… I want my husband is a doctor. *winks*. I wanna marry 31 years old man, while I’m 23. Rezza told me, (hem… Tania for sure, not me) “See, I can making love with you without love, I can kiss you without you don’t know I love you or not. I’m a man, Tania. I knew what inside their brain. He did it, not because he loves you, but desires of yours.” Well yeah, I can’t say Tania is a “nice” person and even Rezza. But as a girl, she did with love. Not because she wants to, but, her heart said so. Opposite with her boyfriend, Hendrik, is just playing with her. The book itself said the truly life in here. AND YOU KNOW WHAT, I love how Rezza treats Tania (I wanna be treated like that) when Tania, how do I say ngambek? “Oohh, soo!??” // “I mad about you, sorry” Rezza replied and rubs his girlfriend’s cheek // “you’re so annoying” // “Well thanks, I love you too.” // I can’t stop smiling, ladies and gentlemen!!!! And and when Tania is having birthday, "Happy birthday My Precious" That's sweet!!!! "On our own, each of us is imperfect. but together, we complete each other." I falling in love with the characters. So much. End--

2014

Happy New Year 2014!

Like people always said, this is the perfect time to start over. To begin a new you. And that is what I try to do every year, to be a better person than last year. To begin a new me. So like other people do, I set a list of resolution. This year the resolution is very clear : get an excellent mark, be better in college life, um… But one thing for sure, I want to be happy this year. Achieve things I want, not what others want. To do things that I want, not because everyone said I should do this and that. To really seek what I really want from life. And most of all, enjoy every moment I have.

Leaving 2013 was a bitter-sweet moment. It was a tough year. Tough enough to make me feel small and unwanted. Tough enough to make me feel that world is such an evil place to life. Sometimes I need to yell at myself to get a grip. But I've learn a lot from that. I've learn that not every person in your life willing to stay at the lowest point of your life. Some of them don't want to help you, they just watch you crumble. I've learn that people can change in a blink of an eye. One day they can be really nice to you, then the next day they can said the cruelest things to you. Or worse, about you behind your back. I've learn that people can hurt you. A lot. Without giving a shit about it. I've learn that those view people who willing to stay at your lowest point, those people who sincerely nice to you, and never want to hurt you is someone who really cares about you. And those person is someone you can keep and trust for the rest of your life. I've learn that no matter life punch you down, you have to get up and fight back. No matter how hard it is, no matter how painful it is, you have to go on. Because when you stop living your life, you will no longer a human. You no longer have a soul. Courage is one thing that can keep you going. Things will be fine if you believe it will be fine. But the most important thing 2013 have thought me was not to take everything for granted. Because God can take the simplest thing you have, things you sometimes forget to be grateful for. At the end of the day you have to look back what you have in your life, be grateful of every single things that life and God had offer to you. Be grateful. And always keep what you have now.

Thank you 2013. It was a great ride. Awesome adventure. The ups and downs. The highs and lows. Thank you. So long and goodbye now. Happy new year.

Words can't desribe

hey yoooo this is us, come back.. i know i know, you already missed our story, right?
we are still connecting, although sometimes skype, ym, are messed, uh. bad! but we can go on email to inform each other. hoyeeee :))
it's been a long, long way of saying hello, of saying good night or morning, of saying hows work, hows school. work is good for him. getting better actually. he recently got new position. and he said, "ya i got more responsibility" 
we just do, what we can do right now, to keep in touch.
"i've always been here. it's been up to you whether you want to talk or not." he said with a giggle.

We can learn from that

Jadi begini,

Kapanpun secara tiba-tiba bisa saja isakan tangis itu pecah. Entah karena memang sebelumnya ia sengaja menahan atau tertahan tanpa ia sadari. Terus menjadi orang yang senang dan tersenyum di depan orang lain. Apa yang ada di benaknya sampai air mata itu menetes ia sendiri pun tak tahu. Ada kalanya ia merasa kosong. Kadang pula ia merasa sangat hampa. Bahkan ada saat-saat ia bersyukur diantara isakan tangisnya. Ketika menangis, ia tahu akan tertawa lagi setelah bangun dari tidurnya. Lupa sejenak akan masalah yang ia tidak sadari keberadaanya. Atau membohongi dirinya sendiri bahwa tidak ada yang salah sama sekali dalam hidupnya.

She wish she could write about him. But what can she say? There's too much to tell. She couldn't decide where to start, what to write. Happiness filled with laughter, pain completed by tears. Even when people think there's no more theirs, She knows somehow they're still connected.

Even though they're no longer together,

Even when she was alone or with someone else, she missed him now and then. 
Even though he was nowhere to be seen, she sees him with her heart.

I'm not talking about me, I'm talking about her. The girl whose named Lola.

This's gonna be my honorable activity

 Hello guys, finally the tests are done! yippiyeah

words cannot say how happy i am :)

welcome holiday!!!!!

hem anyway, sorry for this blurry quality

10 things I would love to do with you today

Dear you, how's life? going well so far?
wondering how do you look like right now 
anything change? besides your hair? :p
well, i'm pretty good nowdays
i don't know why, maybe just because i came home last thursday
haha my family is good, thanks for asking
um.. i kinda miss your mother by the way :p how is she?

okok to make it short, i want to tell you 10 things i would love to do with you today

Remember, and read this again

At the end of each day, just before you go to bed, take about thirty seconds to look out your bedroom windows at the stars.

remember your place in this world, don't let yourself get lost in it.

then, take the time to remind yourself that what you're going through right now will pass, and it will get better.

everything heals with time. remember that even on your darkest, most horrible days..

those days when you feel utterly, helplessly alone, underestimated, unappreciated, and unloved, that you are not.

remember that somewhere out therein this big world, somebody loves you and appreciates you so much,

perhaps more than you'll ever know.

furthermore, realize that there's at least one person out there that's dying to meet someone just like you.

yes, you.

you even with your frizzy hair, big nose, glasses, and not-so-flat tummy.

you with your awkward smile, embarrassing laugh, and that corny sense of humor that you think no one could ever love.

you are appreciated and wished for and brilliant, all of you.

above all else though, take the time each day, at least once, to remind yourself that you're beautiful, inside-out.

don't let the way others judge you affect how you judge yourself.

don't let your mistakes and your past define you.

and don't let anything hold you down.

remember that you are wonderful person and you have the potential to go so far in life.

you are amazing just how you are.

and you don't need to change for anyone but yourself.

each day and every one of you is worth so much more than you know

and if you ever start to forget or doubt any of that, read this again.

remember this again.

you know, it's true, now it's time you embrace it.

30% funny, 70% weird

Sebentar lagi awal masuk semester 2. saya harus much better :) ohiya bener-bener dia menyita waktu saya banget x.x ya ampun gak tau deh harus gimana akhirnya. jangan-jangan ini....? haha

dia udah tinggal di US, california, sejak umur 9 tahun. makin hari makin banyak aja yang gw tau tentang dia hehe. SEMALEM ada kejadian yang buat saya kinda sad pas paginya. pas lagi chat biasa di ym, tiba-tiba dia gak bales saya lagi, yaudah saya tidur aja tapi sebelumnya saya sempet bilang gini "at the end, you leave me without saying anything?"

tadi pagi ternyata juga gak ada chat dari dia. ceritanya kan saya agak gengsi gitu mulai duluan. biasanya dia kalo pagi-pagi x_x haha. yaudah saya nunggu agak siangan. ternyata gak ada juga. akhirnya saya beraniin diri chat dia duluan..

"i was wrong?"

intinya disini error gara-gara jaringan :') dia capture in chat dia semalem, ternyata emang chat nya gak nyampe. terus saya tanya kenapa gak chat pagi-pagi? dia bilang dia email saya! dia takut saya marah makanya dia email saja, pas saya check email, ternyataaaaa

mau nyemplung ke sumur aja rasanya :') dia email saya huahaha saya saja yang tidak mengecek nya.

ya ampun jadi ini bener-bener gila hehe. ohiya besok (yang artinya di US kamis) dia ada test. dan ini yang kita lakukan barusan

seperti yang saya bilang, dia itu pintar -.- dia lagi nunjukin catatan nya. banyak loh. dia juga left handed haha

lagi belajar saya liatin :/ gak ngerti juga sih kita ngapain

ini pas lagi ngelucu

ini pas bubar hehe

yaudah sih itu aja. inimah fix S-2 nya ambil ke univ calif barkely nyusul kakak cinta laura -_-

ohiya tambahan, sumpah sama dia gak ada berenti nya ketawa haha. kalo kata dia, saya orang yang lucu. kalo kata saya, dia orang nya aneh haha. dia bilang sendiri diri dia aneh. kalo kata dia, misalnya mau di buat film, jadinya "beauty and the beast" lol

sangking lamanya kita skype an, udah berkali-kali kita minum!! minum air mineral. karena cape dan haus juga haha. tapi minum gak bisa semudah itu :)))) dia mesti ngambil nafas dalam-dalam biar dia gak ketawa gara-gara saya :))) selucu itu kah? yang pasti tadi kita ngakak banget, kalo ada lapangan didepan udah langsung ngakak sambil guling-guling.

"you drink too much!" kata saya
"haha why?"
"you dont wanna pee? :/"
"hahahahahahahahahaha" dia ketawa puas :| puas banget. sampe akhirnya dia bener-bener mau pipis, lol!!!

pas dia balik, saya bilang gini, kamu gak mau ke toilet atau dapur atau lainnya lagi gituuu? terus dia jawab, engga kenapa? terus kata saya, soalnya sekarang saya yang mau ke toilet. hahaha. yaudah saya langsung buru-buru ke toilet. selesainya dari toilet, dia nyuruh saya nunjukin tangan saya. saya bilang, bersih -___- terus kata dia "not really, there's a pee mark :/" yaudah deh kita jadi ledek-ledekan -_-

OHIYA LAGI! ini juga lucuuuuu!!!
pas dia lagi belajar, saya kan ceritanya main onet sambil meratiin dia :3 terus tiba-tiba dia berenti, langsung liat ke saya dan pasang wajah serius :') saya tanya, kenapa? terus kata dia, tinta pulpen saya habis :(
bhahahaha saya langsung nunjukin tempat pensil saya dan kasih liat isinya. dia terkejut saya punya lebih dari 5 pulpen in case. terus saya bilang, iya buat nulis laporan nanti kuliah. gitu :') yaampun lucu deh pokoknyaaaa

"everything moving fast.. haha i have to stop and think.. hmm how long do i know you? then i realize for such a short time, i like you too much"

Piggy back ride

Kalo gw cerita tentang dia lagi, bosen gak dengernya? -_- haha
Gapapa lah yah iseng-iseng nulis diary hehe

Dear diary,
(kenapa harus pake dear diary sih Cit? -___-)
tadi siang gw skype-an dong haha gila ya sempet-sempet nya lagi, mumpung belum sibuk kuliah. kalo udah masuk, ngebayangin untuk istirahat aja suka susah.
Ceritanya harus dimulai dari mana? haha hem emangsih awalnya gw sangat-sangat nerveous untuk video chat gitu, tapi lama kelamaan udah terbiasa :')
Kita ngelakuin banyak hal gila! mungkin dia udah cape ketawa terus sama gw, mungkin dia sampe bete gw kerjain haha. sampe-sampe dia bilang

"i wanna give you a piggy back ride blablablba" hehe gw lupa lanjutannya

terus gw diem :| piggy back ride apa -_-? Pig? Babi? Kesel sih kesel aja, masa ngatain sih :\
terus gw tanya, maksudnya apa sih

"haha piggy back ride is like me lifting you up on my back :)"

mungkin karena gw lama nangkepnya terus dia langsung nambahin gini

"haha look it up images on google"

tanpa pikir panjang gw langsung buka google, dan ternyataaaaa!!! huahahaha, ayo kalian cek deh di google ;;)
mungkin karena sangking lucunya gw (?) sebelumnya kita ngelakuin hal-hal bisa dibilang bisa bikin ketawa satu sama lain. pertama gw bilang

"hey can you touch your nose with your tongue?"

hahaha pertama gw dulu yang nyoba, terus dia, terus kalian, itu susah, bahkan mustahil :') terus kita ketawa lagi haha lagian expresinya broooo, walau idung dia udah mancung juga tetep aja gak nyampe :') gw mah gak  nyampe wajar :))))

terus dia gantian, dia lebih parah lagi tantangan nya, ini mah udah pasti gagal -_- dia bilang "can you lick ur eyebrow?"

terus gw langsung pasang wajah serius. mana gw bisa :)) terus ketawa

ini nih gw abis skype sama dia hehe ohiya, gw gak sempet capture tadi soalnya terlalu cape ketawa. ohiyaaaa ada lagi, tadi dia gerak-gerakin mulutnya kaya olahraga mulut gitu katanya dia cape ketawa -_- hm bhahahahaha

My tutor and lovely escort

Remember that I told you he is a smart guy? We share too much, I know about him slowly. We talked about everything! Sometimes we discuss about movie. colombiana, the international, and many more. He know about horror movie too. I think he collects them -_- he knows shutter! I was shocking at that time haha. It’s a Thailand movie. the one and only horror movie I ever watched. And I don’t want more.

Selain bicarain film, kita bicara juga tentang kuliah gw, kuliah dia, dia juga ambil pekerjaan menangani bidang software. Dia juga tutorin orang, whenever friends need his help. Ohiya dia ada kelas sampe jam 10 pagi, setelah itu lanjut kerja, keren banget deh, dewasa gitu, ah :’)

“done with your work?”

“almost out. Just sitting here testing some code”

“code for your project”

“yap, code for project”

Tadi nya gw mau ketawa :’3 tapi gw tahan. Kode nya di Indonesia kan beda :’) bhahaha kalo udah ada orang yang ngomongin kode pasti didepan nya pake hashtag (#kode) gitu kannnn :’) ah dasar anak jaman sekarang haha

Ohiya, dia mau ada test hari kamis besok, doain ya tuips semoga dia lancar :/

“test coming up :(“

“good luck! I know you can pass the test very well”

“hehe I will make you proud :) its tough class though x.x”

“ah great :) but I trust you can get a best mark”

“hehe thanks :) ill show you my grade after I take test”

Tuhkan dari cara ngomongnya aja udah keliatan ini orang pasti pinter banget. Pede gitu mau liatin hasil nilainya ke gw. Ya ampun im very lucky :’)

Intinya gw mau bilang, banyak yang kita bicarain, tapi isinya gak ada yang dumb stuff. How lucky I am

Terus dia nanya gw ambil kelas apa aja. Untuk semester dua ini ada organic chemistry, tech bioprocess, thermodynamic, banyak sampe gw lupa. Terus dia bilang gini (gw makin yakin dia pinter keterlaluan)

“ah nice, I never took a chemistry class. They put me in physics instead”

“you are master in physics? :) I should learn from you”

“I took 3 years of physics :p I can teach you math haha”
"I wanna be ur student o:) teach me :) but its freeee haha"

"Haha i may want some in return :p kidding"

"Ok, anything you want :p"

"what math are you planning to take next?"

karena gw belum masuk kelas matematika, jadi ini perkiraan gw aja

"just around the integral, differential, sin cos tan, for technician"

"hehe so you know those huh? thats good! my baby is smart.. i like it :p"

padahal gw cuma bilang itukan pelajaran emang wajib setiap anak indonesia pasti belajar itu :))) tapi dia kaget gw belajar itu? padahal mah ._____.

"i learn about that, you are smart too"

"no that smart haha but im ok :)"

"well, i like you more, day by day haha"

"you know what, i do too :) i dont know whats gonna happen if we keep up like this haha. all i know is we happy"

"really? happy to hear that. so, keep in touch ;)"

"haha you too"

"i will"

He distracts me alot

dia tuh keren banget ya :') dia baru bangun loh dan kini saatnya waktu tidur saya. tapi seperti biasa, kita share banyak hal. ohiya, dia tuh bener-bener serius kalo masalah pelajaran dan kelas nya. ya ampun pasti dia pinter banget :/

ohiyaaaaaa.. gara-gara foto saya diatas, kita agak marahan (cieeeee) tapi lucu deh :') so sweett bangettttttttt!!!

bener kan ya saya gak jelek-jelek banget, cocok lah yah, mirip juga kan~~~~ huahaha

"you look good. i like it :) especially the one where you do something with ur lips"
"i dont think i look good"
"well i do"
"dont zoom in -__- ok haha"
"haha ok i wont zoom in. tell me something, before you met me, what time did you go to sleep?"
"idk clearly, if i feel sleepy. i sleep. but with you, i never feel sleepy."
"thats bad :/ you looked tired. even if its to stay for me i think you should get more sleep"
"i cant sleep, moreover"
"baby i dont wanna affect ur life in bad way."
"what should i do now? :/"
"i want to make you as happy as possible but i dont want to mess with ur health and stuff"
"go sleep? i dont want till you really say you dont want to talk to me"
"thats hard words to say to u :( are you sleepy?"
"not really, maybe not yet, dont be angry with me :( i just want to talk to you :/ ok 5 mins?"
"im not angry with you, ok, its not like i dont want to haha. all i ask is just if you tired just sleep :) trying to take care of you :)"
"i know you are doing that :)"
":) is it me or the days have been going slow lately? feels like we been together for long time but at the same time i feel its not enough"

:) sampe disitu dulu yaaaa, citra nya masih chat sama dia haha