Silhouette and Stories

i'm on a break of mid term. heloooo!! huehuehue :) 
the past test was good (amin) definitely hard to solve those kind of test *crying*
but i hope, i see the best result of mine
and heres, i have flash news to share
i know i'm growing, and currently i face myself looking weird -_-
idk you do like myself right now or not, lol

 the real picture is...

yap.. as you see, my hair is growing too

" apa lo liat-liat :| "

my friend, took this silly pict of me. well, i lost my nose :-/

the most important thing, i get my weight back!! hehe

Order made

I'm sure I was probably asked before I was born, by someone from somewhere "I will make it so you can see either the past or the future, so which do you want?"

And then, I probably chose the past So that I can become, so I may become a kind person rather than a strong person So that I understand what "memories" are

Continuing, That Somebody said to me "arms, legs, mouths, ears, eyes, hearts, breasts, and the holes in your nose, I'll give you two of each, so isn't that great?"

But I asked a favor "I'm fine with just one mouth" I said So that I don't fight with myself So that I can only kiss one person

This kind of feeling that I want to forget, but can't  What do you call it?

That person with a slightly displeased face He began to speak again, cuz he had to "The heart, which is most important I'll put one in each side of your chest, so isn't that great?"

Yet again I asked a favor I'm sorry, but as for me I don't need the heart on my right side  sorry for always saying selfish things

That is so that when I meet an important person And I hold her I will understand for the first time That our two beats sound on both sides of our chest.

The left is mine, and the right is yours The left is yours, and the right is mine So that when I am alone, there is something missing. So that I do not live on alone

This kind of feeling that I want to forget, but can't What do you call it?

My chest is a flutter, but this kind of feeling that is so nostalgic, what do you call it?

"By the way, There's just one more thing. should I add "tears" as an option? Even without it, there is no impediment, but some people don't add it, because it's a pain. What will you do?"

And then, I asked a for it So that I can become, so I may become a kind person rather than a strong person So that I understand what "importance" is

"So, by the way, as for the flavor of the tears choose a flavor you like They're sour, salty, hot, sweet, choose any one you like Which one do you want?"

Has everything been granted the way you hoped? So show me your face that is always crying well, show me proudly

"Thank you very much. Sorry to have troubled you with so much May I ask just one last thing?

Have we met somewhere before?"

I'm not so good with words but I hope you know that these words are for you.

12 april 2013, 10.13 pm

When you were my lovely best friend over the world.
I miss you. (sorry)
I miss sitting next to you.
Remember when we had a lot of movie to be shared? Remember when we watched movie together and I couldn’t stop starring at you. 
Besides you, the world means everything.
Remember when I gave you a smoothy rub to your nose.
I just love doing that thing.
Every movies that we watched, every songs that I heard when I was with you, every books that we used to read together, all, reminds me of you.
I wanna lays in your arms. To feel you
I wanna see you do debate with your ego. I want you to get mad with me.
I want you to scream over the phone. I want you to leave and forget me.
I want you to have a better best friend than me.
Even if you will really go, I hope you read this,
Hi…. I barely love you again.
But, remember, no need to worry ;) I want you to go ahead.

Because my morning is your night, and my night is your day.

*everyday*

i wake up at 3, but...

3 am: I'll do my homework at 3.15 am.

3.15 am: Oh please just a quarter. 3.30 am for sure.

3.30 am: 30 minutes more is okay.

4 am: Trust me, I'll do my homework at 4.30 am.

 Gotta do some unnecessary things first.

4.30 am: Maybe 30 minutes more.

5 am: Oh yeah! I'll do my homework at 6 am.

6 am: LOL I'm too tired to do this now. 

7 am: Fuck! I'm late!

*the end of the story*

and... guess who was sent me this? :)

"How can I see you when you are miles away,

I would if I could but I can't though I want to,

My morning is your night and my night is your day,

There are so many ways but them I cannot do.

I shouldn't have told you the love I feel,

You shouldn't have fallen for me,

Because you might think I am not real,

For your face I cannot even see.

Though I lucid dream tonight,

We still cannot embrace each other,

I'd love to kiss you and imprison you in my sight,

But our worlds are walled and covered.

I want to believe that you have faith,

You have a faith that I believe,

I have no idea if you could wait,

Or it is my trust you will deceive.

The only bridge from my world to your world,

Is this window in my table,

And when the sun sleeps, love unfurls,

I would rip this window if I am able.

Come closer so I could see your eyes,

I want to know if I am inside,

Let us break the walls and melt the ice,

Run through that fog and hide."

                                                p.s. :')


gw juga!!! haha (ini coretan di istana anak-anak TMII) :p

Hal yang paling manis adalah ketika menyaksikan dua orang yang memutuskan untuk tidak bertemu tetapi selalu dipertemukan Tuhan dengan cara-Nya

Hal yang paling manis adalah ketika menyaksikan momen sepersekian detik, ketika senyum terkejut terpancar dari kedua orang yang matanya bertaut sesaat. Lalu berdeguplah jantung dengan ketukan yang lebih cepat dari hentakan kaki di barisan

Dua hal itu manis, seperti... kita. Hehe

I'd probably seduce you

Hello again,

kinda lazy to write anything lately

lots of work have to be done, lots of deadlines have to be finished

in the last few days, i've been through a lot

good times, bad times, laughs, tears, well its life, right?

as i ever read, "God is never too late or too early, too fast or too slow. God has always been, and always be right on time."

when i fell down, someone seduce me like this

"come, sit next to me :) i wanna feel you, and i do want go feel you in my arms. i wanna feel all love you have for me"

lol :p

and... he sent me email like this

ok, it's time to get back to work *peace*

I just feel… empty

I need time with you, Mom, Dad. 

I need you right here. By my side. 

I need someone who keep me company. 

Who take care of myself. 

I miss being there. 

Maybe it’s a jealousy since I have a new brother. 

You don’t have time to call or ask how was my day. 

I fall down. 

I feel emptiness. 

I have much worries ruin my day alone.

I try to throw this feeling day by day, but what I get I cant hide myself more.

I’m tired. 

About a fatty, and skinny

Dear all of my friends, mungkin pas baca ini kalian gak percaya, tapi ini kenyataan nya.

Seumur-umur, saya belum pernah khawatir dengan berat badan saya. Selama ini saya terbilang kurus dan tidak ada lemak yang suka menempel pada tubuh saya. Tapi semua itu berubah setelah negara api menyerang saya jadi mahasiswa. Kalau dirumah dulu ada yang ngontrol makan saya, yaitu orang tua, terutama papah, tapi pas merantau, saya makan seenak jidat, alhasil, ini semua diluar ekspetasi saya selama ini. Berat badan saya meningkat drastis! Bahkan saya bisa merasakan adanya lemak dalam tubuh saya. Seumur-umur saya gak pernah dibilang “gendut” tapi coba liat sekarang? Gentut!!! Astaghfirullah. Saya tidak mengada-ada atau sedang bercanda. Ini serius. Semua berubah menjadi over size pada bagian paha, lengan, serta perut. Kembalikan perut rata saya :’( paha sekarang lebarnya keterlaluan. Yang dulu saya lurus seperti lidi, sekarang parah banget kalo pake jeans mah keliatan, sedih ini sebenernya :’( saya makan apa aja sih!? Dan lengan! Ini yang paling cetar. Papah saya juga menyadari hal ini :’( dulu saya kurus.. dan sekarang lagi gelar aksi perut rata 2013. Saya sih gak neko-neko, pinginnya cuma mempunyai lengan, kaki, serta perut seperti Widi Vierretale :/

ini tuh dulu pas SMA kalo pake ketekan masih bagus diliat :'/ sekarang mah :'/ kacaan mau pake kaos dalem aja gak berani :/ maksud saya sih badan saya mau bagus lagi aja itu buat calon suami saya nanti (apasih -_-) iya intinya biar cakep aja gitu, apalagi sekarang 2013 bener-bener makin memperhatikan kesehatan, kecantikan, dan kebugaran. iya ini lagi mencoba frequently nge-gym tapi sibuk mulu :'/