It has been more than 6 years!

Hey,
Remember my friend that I told you from US?
He's back!
He emailed me on Christmas but it took me so long to reply
I didn't know how to be back again
The last time I know I didn't reply his email on 2017 cz I was busy
And stuffs made me forgot about anything
Till yesterday I answered his email and tried to catch up on Skype

He is doing fine, still funny when his morning is my time to gotta sleep. We had a lot of great time together so how can I forget? It has been more than 5 years!

Shades of life

Haloo assalamualaikum! Finally got a time to write again. I’m happy that I can share with my previous post about AASM Unilever, hope you guys can pursue your dream. Btw, almost end year huh? Time goes so fast. My life is going unpredictable but still in line with my 2018 goals. Nothing much different. I travel a lot, within one month it can be 2-4 trips by plane. I enjoy it (sometimes). Remember my boyfriend? Yeah he’s still with crazy-me, thank you I love you even more. My love for you is bigger than yesterday.  I’m happy and maybe ready for the next level of us---??? LOL no I’m kidding. I don’t know what kind of this, marriage life or just wanna be with you everyday. About my career, let’s skip this one cz no one wanna talk about that, trust me. By the way, I feel lonely, I can buy anything but I’m lonely. No friends (not virtual), anti-social, just locked the door after I got home. I’m tired of being cheerful and easy going person (cz my position, I have to) just like the two sides of me. Everyone has it. Don’t blame me. But chill guys, I’m ok. I guess it’s time to gotta sleep. Have a wonderful day everyone.

Why?

In this world, I realized, people needs someone to make their life is so precious. To motivate their days. To ask how’s it going. To make you tough of course. So you become stronger. My boyfriend is the one! I don’t know how’s life going without him. My world seems beautiful day by day. He is always make me laugh and… happy. He makes me falling in love with the same person like the first day we met. He protects me very well and I never get bored of him. I just love how he talks, how he stares at me, how he says I’m always pretty and smells good. The airport is the worst place for me, sometimes my life turns bad in that place, but he makes me stronger. It isn’t easy to step away from him, just like, I don’t wanna go, time please stop! But it never stop. It keeps running.

Welcoming 23rd year in 2018!!

YEAR BY YEAR

WE MEET AGAIN, JAN!

Happy New Year 2018 and Happy 23^rd Birthday, Cit!

Gak berasa ya? 2017 has passed. And guess what? All my wish list for the whole 2017 alhamdulillah tercapai. It was like magic, gue sudah ngelakuin ini sejak 2016, dan ajaibnya, sudah 2 tahun setelah gue mulai mengarahkan bagaimana seharusnya hidup di tahun tersebut dan di akhir tahun, semua tercapai. Gue bener-bener percaya sama istilah yang bilang, “write down your dreams”. 2017 tahun yang sangat cepat, kalian merasakan hal yang sama gak sih? Perasaan kek baru kemarin lulus kuliah, lalu di CBA, lalu tiba tiba sudah mau setahun aja karir di tempat sekarang ini.

Untuk tahun 2017, mau terima kasih sama Kota Bandar Lampung, yang sudah ngasih pengalaman tinggal di sana, ngerasain udara bandar lampung, kosan mewah samping McD, KFC, Pizza Hut. Kenal orang-orang dan budaya sana, pertama kali nya tinggal di Sumatra! Eh gak tau nya, di minggu akhir Bulan November, gue dikasih pengalaman baru lagi nih untuk ngerasain tinggal di Kota Batam, jadi… Mau thanks to Batam juga! Bahkan gue pun merasakan pergantian tahun di Batam.

Banyak yang bikin gue happy di 2017, tapi tak luput juga sama sedih sedih, drama, takut, degdegan dahsyat, lalu rasa pingin pulang, kangen semua orang, sampai rasa pingin nikah aja sangking bombastis nya hidup sendokiran haha. Bener-bener tahun 2017 buat gue sangat sangat mandiri. Walau sudah terbiasa nge kost, but it’s different, karna lingkungan kerja pun berbeda dengan lingkungan kuliah. So, it was amazing. Bersyukur banget pastinya, kalua bukan karna karir di sini, kapan lagi punya kesempatan sampai terpaan mental, pikiran, attitude, the best untuk Unilever, sungguh pengalaman yang sangat luar biasa.

Unilever, yap, 2017, di tahun itu sangat tidak menyangka, orang kaya gue yang rata-rata dibanding temen-temen waktu kuliah, tiba-tiba berkat di sini, gue growing, my dad once said, Papa bangga, the way I talked, cara saya berfikir, much much better than he used to know. Bahkan sering kalian dengar, ini tuh mimpi yang jadi kenyataan, bisa ya gue ternyata. Terima kasih juga untuk para mentor yang banyak banget ngasih ilmu, cara berfikir, sering ngajak diskusi, baik baik banget. My pleasure loh being around them.

Di 2018 ini, dan di umur yang menginjak 23, gue pun masih berharap yang sama, semoga papa mama adik adik sehat, bahagia, lancar semuanya, wish list untuk goals di tiap tahunnya gak pernah gue share. Tapi gue tulis di kertas, gak banyak orang tau apa, tapi list list tersebut yang berawal dari “kayanya gak mungkin deh, ah tapi tulis aja deh” lalu tiba-tiba tercapai. Jadi, selalu ada yang ditunggu tunggu di akhir tahun, yaitu review pencapaian gue.

Untuk percintaan, asyique nih haha, insyaAllah ya! Mas nya cepet selesai S-2 dolooo, baru cari kerja, biar bisa tiap malmingan nonton bioskop, HAHA, that’s one of my dreams loh! Kebanyakan liat Instagram nye Nana Andrew nih jadi sukak ngayal wakakak. Sukses dulu lah kita ya, dilancarin pekerjaan dan urusan masing-masing, lancar jugak neh perjalanan kita sampai bersatu ulala~

So yeah, secara garis besar, 2017 itu awal karir gue banget! Dan gue berharap di 2018 karir gue semakin baik, bisa cepet cepet liburan bareng sekeluarga pake duit gue haha, sama… mau ke kota kota yang unik, mau travelling juga sama mas nya, konsep honeymoon nya backpacker an gitu kali ya. Eits mulai kejauhan nih ngayalnya. See you around!

ULI story #1

Hai,

Sudah lama banget ya, sejak postingan gw terakhir. Entah kenapa, tapi "being here" like I don't have much time to do my favorite activity, writing. Yap. Awalnya gw mau curhat sedih. Mau se depresi itu awalnya, HAHA, apalagi keadaan mendukung, ketika gw abis book month and my boss said I'm stupid. It's not going good in my last presentation. So yeah, I'm not sure this time. And also afraid, lonely. Tapi, tiba-tiba mood gw berubah lagi, karena "baru baca" komentar reader yang nanya nanya bagaimana sebagai AASM ini. Dan ini update nya. Iya, gw gak nyangka udah selama ini gw gak update blog gw. Dan faktanya pun, gw udah berhasil melewati quartal pertama adaptasi, I remember when nangis tiap malam dan mengeluh betapa gak kuat nya gw, ketika lempar curhat sana sini ke temen-temen, sampai berdoa, "yaAllah kuatkanlah aku". Tapi, balik dari semuanya, Unilever memang mimpi gw, mimpi gw kerja di perusahaan ini. Allah maha baik banget sama gw, kadang malu masih suka ngeluh. Dan ketika kedepannya apapun yang terjadi nanti, pengalaman gw di sini sangat priceless banget.

Here we go..

Proses yang panjang, bahkan ketika ditanya, awalnya apply bagaimana, saya lupa, karena dari awal setelah sidang, banyak yang di apply dari media manapun. Sedikit bercerita, setelah lulus, saya hanya mengikuti 2 proses tahapan seleksi mencari kerja, hanya 2 tempat yang saya datangi untuk perekrutan, PT CBA Chemical dan Unilever. When I was a kid, I dreamed about working here. Sampai sekarang juga masih gak percaya bahkan setelah lulus juga gak berani apply perusahaan besar. Saya pun hanya bermodalkan internet tanpa pernah mencicipi job fair. Ketika perekrutan di Unilever, saya ingat bercerita mengenai CEEC, KKN di Pemalang, BJRB di Lampung, Kampung Inggris di Pare, Lebaran di Padang, dan tempat tempat lain yang pernah saya kunjungi (karena penempatan nanti tersebar di seluruh Indonesia, jadi ceritain apakah pernah jauh dari keluarga selain kuliah) jadi untuk setiap momen yang pernah saya lewati, thank you for that beautiful experiences.

Baru sekarang berani mulai cerita walau email "welcome to Unilever family" sudah ada beberapa waktu lamanya. Thank you, me, for becoming tough, for reaching your dream when it's not easy to expect more. This is how (blogging) I show to the world that I'm proud enough being here although it wont be easy for struggling. Sekarang, berdoa lagi dan pastinya bermimpi satu tahun dari sekarang harus bisa "survive". Ready, Cit?

Dear God, can I just marry him?

This week, I met him 3 times, and suddenly became the best week ever. On Sunday, we took a photo after his graduation at summarecon mall serpong, and... it's cute I'm not lying.

RIGHT? :) 

And had lunch at Onokabe AlSut because we're starving (Wait, we? is it you or just me? ok kidding). Then we went to Big Bad Wolf 2017 and I still remember we hand in hand from the parking lot to the building. I didn't take a picture there but they still perfectly in my mind, the atmosphere, the smells of yours (of course, always). I'll tell you guys, this is a secret, I love holding his hand, with my tiny hands and his so-daddy-hands, pureeefect!

Next, we went to Living World to watch Guardian of The Galaxy Vol. 2. Fyi, this is so true, (jadi waktu masih pacaran di Semarang, kalau ngeliat vlog nya tipang arif yang pacaran nya selalu pergi nonton sampe nyokapnya ngomel, lalu terjadi sama cila riandy yang selalu pergi nonton, selalu, entah kenapa). 

On Wednesday, we went to DUFAN, we both have annual pass dufan card, so yeah. Bekasi-Karawaci-Ancol-Karawaci-Bekasi (lo bayangin aja mabok pasti tapi Riandy parah kuat banget ingin nangis rasanya). Arrived around 12 p.m. lalu Riandy langsung hajar kicir-kicir, and me,, hehe taulah duduk aja kan takut :) dan... karena Riandy juga, ini pertama kalinya saya berani naik roller coaster yeayyyy, yang mini tapi, barengan nya sama anak anak SD study tour :))) demi gak bohong haha. Ohiya, ada kejadian menarik, jadi ceritanya yang ingin basah-basahan naik arum jeram tuh Cila, dari 6 orang dalam boat gitu, hanya Cila yang gak basah samsek, samsek, sama sekali. Gak seru, bete, gak hoki pilih tempat duduk padahal mau nya basah. Ohiya, ke dufan ini sebenarnya keinginan Cila juga yang ingin ngersain antri dufan sambil pacaran (karena iri waktu gathering kantor ke dufan sama temen-temen kantor lalu liat banyak yang antri sambil pacaran). 

Dan... yang terbaiknya di hari Sabtu, when he invited me to his cousin's wedding, "My whole family will be there, so come". Well, I had a good and bad stories about past, but the last one is suck. The figure of "ortu pacar" scared me. Tapi Riandy bilang, tenang saja. And boom, like he said, semuanya ada, bahkan nenek nya (saya gak pernah tau rasanya punya kakek nenek, kalau di film, mereka bisa jadi orang terbaiknya kita). Jadi, pas liat nenek Riandy, seneng aja gak tau kenapa.

Kenapa cerita gini? Karena tiba-tiba pingin nangis kalau jika pada akhirnya this relationship doesn't work. And... I dont want that's happen. He is so nice, kind as hell, and I never see this part of me before I met him. I... I actually a little girl who pretend like an older sister but not with him. So yeah I wanna cry.