Hai, mimpi.

Kata orang mencintai memiliki fase. Mungkin yang paling standar adalah fase dimana manusia belum mencintai dan fase dimana manusia sudah mulai mencintai. Mulai karena manusia pada dasarnya adalah makhluk yang memiliki rasa benci, karena ada satu titik dimana kita akan kembali bertingkah seperti fase terdahulunya.

Here I am, the invisible Chemical Engineering Student. When some friend asks me "teknik kimia belajar apa aja? Kimia ya? Nilai kimia nya pas SMA bagus nih pasti" well, suddenly i have no words to tell them what i am learning. Seakan kata teknik di depan kata kimia tersebut hilang dari pandangan mereka saat gw bilang "iya.. teknik kimia." that's different between Chemical Eng. and Chemistry. We purely not only learn about chemistry, we learn many things. "Kamu waktu SMA kimia nya belajar apa?" Tanya gw. "molekul, elektron, susah lah pokoknya." biar cepet, gw selalu ngasih jawaban, "gw belajar bikin pabrik, mengoperasikan dan mengelola. Hasilnya? Yang lo pake." Rasanya, untuk survive menurut gw susah, belom dapet aja cara nya seperti minat gw dulu untuk melahap semua soal-soal matematika, berlomba dapetin nilai sempurna untuk ulangan matematika, kimia. Biologi? ngerti aja syukur, walau catatan gw rapih dan warna-warni, tetep aja jadi hal yang paling susah diantara ke-6 mata pelajaran yang di UN kan. Fisika sekalinya ngerti gw bisa jungkir balik sambil ngerjain soal dengan materi itu-itu aja. But look at me now? Belum ada yang gw genggam, belum, rasanya untuk menggenggam itu sulitttt banget.Iya ngerti, tapi ngerti nya sama soal yang mau di ujian kan, itupun H-beberapa jam ujian. What's wrong with you Cit. Ngeliat passion di diri sendiri aja gw gak bisa, gw jago dimana? Apa yang gw kuasai? Ini curhat, maaf aja ya. Biar suatu saat di baca lagi bisa buat hiburan. Semesta bicara tanpa bersuara.

I hope God would bless me with an even bigger heart, so I could love you even more.

Another book by Dahlian, I read in less than 4 hours, the amazing 364 pages of their story, Tania and Rezza.  It’s not like an usual romance-fiction-book for me, I’ve learned many things. And, the-after-effect is… I want my husband is a doctor. *winks*. I wanna marry 31 years old man, while I’m 23. Rezza told me, (hem… Tania for sure, not me) “See, I can making love with you without love, I can kiss you without you don’t know I love you or not. I’m a man, Tania. I knew what inside their brain. He did it, not because he loves you, but desires of yours.” Well yeah, I can’t say Tania is a “nice” person and even Rezza. But as a girl, she did with love. Not because she wants to, but, her heart said so. Opposite with her boyfriend, Hendrik, is just playing with her. The book itself said the truly life in here. AND YOU KNOW WHAT, I love how Rezza treats Tania (I wanna be treated like that) when Tania, how do I say ngambek? “Oohh, soo!??” // “I mad about you, sorry” Rezza replied and rubs his girlfriend’s cheek // “you’re so annoying” // “Well thanks, I love you too.” // I can’t stop smiling, ladies and gentlemen!!!! And and when Tania is having birthday, "Happy birthday My Precious" That's sweet!!!! "On our own, each of us is imperfect. but together, we complete each other." I falling in love with the characters. So much. End--

Is there any other way to London?

No idea.

I got stuck in front of my laptop about 2.5 hours finishing my essay. I did nothing.

I've tried to find a lot of information about Crimea and now they are making me crazy!

I don't know how to start, what should I write.

London, wait for me, I know there's another way to you, baby.

Not this time, but someday, I'm gonna be a-real-London-walker.

Current faces: Hey sleepyhead!

Dear Neptunus, kali ini radar yang mempertemukan ku dengan agen mu. Radar kita terkoneksi satu sama lain. Dan perahu kertas ini..... haha freak, efek baru nonton perahu kertas. Film itu bilang, "Kenapa Kuggy memilih untuk bersama Lode di Bali?" // "Kuggy gak akan balik ke Jakarta. Kuggy akan menetap di Bali. Karena Kuggy memilih Lode." // "Cinta itu dipilih, bukan memilih. Jika Kuggy memilih Lode, selamanya akan ada beban."--- ya kurang lebih begitu. Sebenarnya, saya kurang mengerti maksud nya apa. Does anyone? FIlm itu mengajarkan kita untuk terus melanjutkan mimpi. Garis untuk mencapai mimpi itu bukan garis lurus.

Sudah cukup dengan intro nya. Semenjak selesai UTS ini, saya suka ngantuk. Kuliah selalu ambil jadwal pagi. Senin kemarin dateng telat karena bangun kesiangan. Untungnya belom ada dosen #IKnew. Hari selasa gak kuliah, karena--ngantuk. Sedih banget, padahal motto hidup akhir-akhir ini mau di rubah menjadi play hard, work hard. Wajah suka beler. Siang-siang hobi nya jadi bobo. Akibatnya selalu bisa bobo kalo jam udah lewat dari 00.00. Dan begitu terus siklusnya, bangun kesiangan lagi. Udah pasang alarm. Tapi teman kost saya sampai heran karena saya gak bangun-bangun padahal alarm udah banter.

i'm always have a problem with my eyes. So, pardon me -_-

Fairy Tale

My ego is too high when I’m reading a novel. I don’t like the tear-jerker but the good one, with the main character is living happily ever after. And that’s the end. Happy. The novel itself, always bring me into the imagination that I can play. And I shouldn’t have told you, I will let myself crying easily after finishing books or movies. Whether it ends with dramatically or not. And I don’t push myself to stop crying. That’s the fact, of me. Well, the impact after finishing that stuff, I’m always wanna be the girl in that book, or movie. Always. That’s happen to me so often. In a nutshell, everyone want to have a kind of perfect life. Like I told you. But I thought you won’t find it in here. In a fairy tale, for sure. So, what you can find in here? If you got lucky, you will find the person who doesn’t wear mask, one in billion. She/he is your best friend. I found one. I call her Uhuy. Bisa dikatakan, saya termasuk orang yang percaya bahwa sahabat sejati itu gak ada. Everyone is moving. Each moving they will find the new person, the new experience, with the new you. I believe. But, one thing right now, the closest friend I have, is my best friend.

My life isn’t perfect, but I’m thankful for everything I have

mau flashback dari minggu (6/4) sampai hari ini. intinya, berangkat pagi pulang malam. ada aja yang di kerjain. laporan, kumpul ini itu, ketemu ini, ketemu itu, gak sempet liat tv even twitter. dan gak terasa, H-seminggu UTS. hahahaha. semester 4 nih?

btw, ada yang request gw, post foto lama. ini jaman SMA kelas X. ruangan ijo yang bikin mata gw minus. ac super dingin yang buat barisan kedua kolom dua dari kanan kosong, dengan seragam yang paling gw bangga-banggain. jadi inget, loker isi nya buku-buku paket, tiap berangkat gak pernah bawa tas berat, eh sekali nya ngosongin isi loker (karena ulangan, pr, dan 'pingin baca-baca' aja) sampe minta kresek ke ibu kantin :') sekalinya pulang kaya siswa baru abis beli buku paket.

kegiatan yang paling di suka jaman SMA? upacara sama olahraga. kegiatan lain nya? pas classmeeting. bisa nonton film di kelas rame-rame sambil bawa jajan. kalo hari ter-surga itu, hari sabtu pastinya, bisa pake sepatu bebas dan kaos kaki pendek. gw selalu bawa kotak bekel, walau isinya cuma nasi aja, lauk nya beli di kantin. barang yang gak pernah ketinggalan, handsanitaizer, dan semua anak di kelas pasti punya. ohiya, balik lagi soal loker, temen gw, sebut saja dita, anak nya gokil, kocak deh, di saat yang lain isi loker nya 'buku', si dita, baju baru, sepatu baru, tas baru. dia takut ketauan nenek nya kalo belanja-belanja gitu wkwk. kita pernah mau jual barang-barang dita ke toko bagus, huahaha, terus barang-barang nya di fotoin dengan angel yang pas, biar keliatan bagus. alas nya pake taplak meja guru. hoho.

pernah nangis gak di kelas? engga, kayanya engga. *gak mau ngaku* 

I wonder if the things that remind me of you remind you of me.

Everyone has a secret they haven’t shared, a past no one has heard about. And talents that people don’t notice. Everyone has a weakness hidden inside. And everyone has a story left untold. I believe we write our own stories, and each time we think we know the end, we don’t. Life is funny that way. Baby, I hate to say it, most of them, actually pretty much of people are going to break your heart. But, you can’t give up :) because if you give up, you’ll never find soulmate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. As time goes on, you’ll understand, what lasts, lasts. What doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And I note one thing, happiness starts with one word, one joke, one text, one phone call, one song, one hug, one kiss, and stops with one mistake. It doesn’t take a lot for me to like you actually, if you can legitimately make me feel happy, even in the slightest way. And have you ever thought about how many people thinking about you? It’s so bizarre. Imagine someone, thinking of your face. Something happens, they remember you. Your favorite song, how you dress, the way you talk, the look in your eyes when you are happy. Even if you haven’t seen each other in days. You may think you’ve forgotten, but you haven’t. And you know what? If things end, people leave, but life must go on. Bad things happen to everyone, so you are not in it alone. Cheers!