The warmest color

35 days, why not?

Oh. Hi there.

I have abandoned this blog, I kind of forget that I have this thing and I'm too lazy to update it. Anyway, how was my kkn life? There are so much I want to tell, I don't even know how to start it. Let's start with... I spent the 35 days of #kknlyfe in Pemalang. I lived in Desa Danasari at Ibu Yati's house. She such a good mother and caring and good at cooking. Ibu Yati and her grandchild Gina also coloring my 35 days. Well, my housemates are accidentally my family. We haven't met before and must be placed in somewhere you called "home". I honestly want to skip this #kknlyfe at first. I don't know why but I thought it just wasting time and money also. But, one of many things I learned, I love them unfortunately. I found the most fun and supportive friends you could ever imagine. Cool right? So this is our picture

They are my family. Look how we stick each other and I'm so grateful being us. How could you forget with people who saw you every single times from morning till morning again, from the ugliest part of them. I couldn't. Babies, thank you for those smiles, and.. the drama tho, the sharing session, the teary eyes because we have to be back to "reality". I still remember the time we sleep together, the time we do karaoke, playing badminton even football, the time we have a creepy night and movies all day long. You know I'm still not good in words but this one you may understand that I'm so happy in 35 days with them, my gengs. 

Lingga, the leader, as known as kordes koordinator desa, who always taking care of us. He loves smoking, I don't know why, and he doesn't allowed to consume green veggies and sea fish. But honestly, he's so kind. Tyas, the secretary and the most diligent ever, I love her because she is unique and I never heard she said tired. I think that's cool! Syahid, as "who doesn't know him?", full of laughter and his life sounds easy. Bima, the oldest one, as kind as father, he just funny in his way. I meant, soooo funny! Aldo, the craziest guy ever, he is unpredictable and good to know that east people not as scary as they look like. Yudhi, from him I learned many things, such an inspiring guy and congraduation for new title as Bach Deg of Law. Adrian, the innocent guy, he looks kind at first and introvert and type of calmy but actually he is not. LOL. Albab, the high temper guy but sooo care and kind, enough say. Martha, my roommate, she is funny and good at listening (ps, we match as a gossip partner). Ilma, the kindest one, my roommate, my partner in "doesn't want to do anything just in laying bed" because we are cool, agree? Onya, the multi talented girl, she can sing and playing any music instrument, she loves veggies. And the last member is me, a chemical engineering student (teknik kimia) who doesn't like..... Well it's a secret :p

So, this is my #kknlyfe (Kuliah Kerja Nyata KKN TIM 1 UNDIP 2016) See you guys on top!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY

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So this time I would like to write how's my birthday going. For every year I keep writing this and they are becoming more surprisingly the blast birthday ever. I cried. This is my first time I guess to cry in front of people. 

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Yes, I try to remember what had happened through out last year. 20 was the year of mood easily swings. I often got angry but honestly, I don't want to. It wasn't easy to face the reality. It's a bumpy road full of daunting obstacles. However, as I underwent it, I realize how much I had grown into a much sincere, stronger, and wiser self. It's always like that, isn't it? The thing that doesn't kill you will only make you thrive.

I'm so grateful for what I have right now. And I can't wait to write down a lot more in this new age. Thank you, friends, for being here when I almost forgot how kind they are. 

Teruntuk semua ucapan-ucapan serta doa nya dari kalian semua yang gak bisa aku capture in satu-satu. Terima kasih untuk post an di media social kalian, untuk Edha yang udah ngepost foto aku di path beserta doa-doa dan harapan yang terbaik buat aku, untuk Ciwaw yang udah ngepost foto aku di Instagram beserta kata-kata lucu yang bikin inget jaman cabe kita haha, untuk Indri yang udah buat khusus tulisan mengenai aku di tumblr nya [HERE]. Terima kasih banyak ucapan serta doa kalian ya. 

Terima kasih untuk kiriman video nya dari Dias, Ardi, Meula, Reri dan Ranie, kalian emang dari dulu gak pernah absen ya! Video nya ada diatas bisa dilihat hehe. Untuk Juwi yang ngucapin pertama kali wakakak, temen kalo aku di Tangerang yah! Untuk Rayi yang... yah emang dari awal banget selalu inget, terima kasih ya. Sama untuk Kevin yang udah seperti ade sepupu sendiri. Dan temen-temen lain yang take it personally ngucapin ke aku, semoga doa yang terbaik pun untuk kalian aamiin (walau doa gak mesti di hari ulang tahun doang, tapi tidak apa-apa ya).

Paling spesial untuk orang yang hadir di hari nya aku, buat aku emotionally ya sampai menangis tiba-tiba. Buat Betha yang malemnya aku udah bete kesel parah gak diucapin sama dia, buat Jurin yang lagi chat-chat an tapi bilangnya mau di rumah aja, untuk ade nya Ninda yang sempetin mampir, untuk Ninjels yang....ah itu udah gak bisa di deskripsiin lagi yang tiap tahun selalu nyiapin khusus buat aku. Makasih juga untuk Lulu yang dateng ya karena Ninjels haha makasih ya. Riandy yang selalu ada disamping aku bahkan satu harian penuh di tanggal 9 aku bersama Riandy. Makasih untuk petualangan penuh suka cita gembira luar biasa.

Yang paling seneng untuk ade aku super cuteeee yang udah nyanyiin sealbum lagu happy birthday lewat videocall. Makasih ade nya mbaita super cute kesayangan dan segalanya. Makasih juga untuk Bagas yang ngucapin di Path, wkwk. Bermakna bung. Makasih untuk doa nya dari keluarga aku, papa mama ku, om tante dan semuanya. I love you.

2015 Review: It's Happy New Year!

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Welcome January 2016...

Back to a minutes before 2016, so we spent the new year's eve at Ninda's with Lulu, Riancul, and Dinda's friends. I had a terrible but still amazing night because my first day of period (it sucks). My stomach was hurt but i ignored the pain. I consumed a tablet but still sucks. But it's ok I'm happy and enjoying the moments. I didn't take any pictures in my handphone but I guess there's a couple of me in Nin's camera. Wait I have to tell this because I forgot easily, "Thanks Riancul for taking care of me when I'm sick. For not going anywhere but stay and hold my hands. I couldn't find any better than this." I really enjoyed my night as I predicted. (smile).

Well the photo above is my brother and me, and Goddd I miss him already. He is so cute and getting smart everyday. This 2015 means a lot for 2 yo baby brother. I'm very proud being his sister.

So, this is Riancul. I'm basically running my day with this man. Having breskfast, having lunch, even having dinner. I believe everyone is agree 24 hours/day is not enough, not even close. Actually this is like when we found someone who truly they are, why we need to find 1000 others? I'm still me and he's still him, hanging out with friends of course we keep doing that. From past I learned for not hanging my own happiness in a person, so yeah i'm sure "us" will last. But the other part of me sure "do not" dream big, my life is a long way to go. Maybe we are not us in the future but I'll remember you as my very best friend because both of us do not know about time. But this moments, you are a gift. We here for each other. Thank you baby and I hope it lasts.

2015 Review

Today is 2015 and tomorrow will be 2016. I'm 20 yo girl today and tomorrow I'll be 21. It's been an awesome year for me, happy tears, sad tears. If you ask me my higlight of this year, it's probably this

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Sometimes you go sad, go tired, you get angry and dissapointed. But I have a new rules here, that you have to smile and be happy today (I have a test at noon but still concern writing blog, and i called them happiness). Those pictures selfie that i've taken during this year that almost describe my day in a nutshell. From up left till down right. I've been running my life through the heavy part and the best part so I wanna thank to this year because I guess my future owe a thanks to my 20 yo hehe.

There's a lot of sorry about this year too and If I could say sorry personally I will do that. Sorry. I hope we still friends and time doesn't heal the pain, you know, it's a big lie. It's not healing, the wound stays and the hole will forever be there. As big as they are and not getting any smaller. But you just get used to it. You know what I mean? You learn to live your life with those pain.

SO TODAY (31/12 7:21 pm) i continue writing this post and believe for a hundred percent sure this night will be amazzzzinngggg. I'm alone here in my sanctuary. No friends stay in their room, sadly i know. But I'm so grateful to have someone named Riancul around me. And he was already knew that i'm so thankful being his best friend.

Well 2015, if 2015 have 12 months, i'll say I had an ups and downs moment in the first 5th months. The next forth months was hard and struggle and fragile. But see, I'm back alive and met someone new, so.. my end of 2015 is fantastic.

No much friends come, still Ninda my very best friend stay. She just the one in Semarang. And I can say I don't have friend to trust but Ninda. Thank you Nin, you have a kind heart. What else? Yeah I had an internship in PT Chandra Asri Petrochemical last August and I still miss the atmosphere in there. The shitty tears too. And this is our selfies again

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Thanks for the experience becoming one of you (seriously I love being there).

Then, I met Riancul and we match I guess lol. He doesn't try anything to make me happy but i don't know I'm just happy besides him. Awalnya (eakk bahasa indonesia) gak ada rasa kaya Riancul pdkt atau apa ngedeketin atau apa. Aku cuma suka minta tolong Riancul dan Riancul mau nolongin. Riancul recently jadi sering nemenin aku makan waktu itu tapi dia sopan gak ada sikap kaya ngedekitin sampe akhirnya... Haha lucu. Intinya, aku senang.

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i'll continue this later. HAPPY NEW YEAR.

  

Di Sushi Story

DAN.. kalo yang ini, mau gue share spesial :))) mungkin ini hal ter cutest yang gue rasain so far. Ter-elo-gue. Ter-pacaran rasa gebetan, rasa sahabatan, rasa menjelek-jelekan layaknya bro-sis, persis kakak adek kalo berantem lalu ada yang ngadu ke nyokap. Semoga seperti ini terus rasanya. Gak berani banyak mimpi ya, apalagi mikirin masa depan. Diem-diem merajut aja gitu. Berdoa dan lakuin yang terbaik. Soalnya gak ada yang tau juga. Semakin lama semakin belajar kalo perasaan orang siapa yang bisa nebak, jadi lebih realistis saja. Semoga lo tetep jadi seperti ini. Dan gue bisa tetep selalu terhibur disaat lo bahkan cuma diem. 

365 IDEAS OF HAPPINESS

An interactive coloring journal (emang lucu bet, lucu parah, bisa di hias hias gituw buku nya). Karya Nurilla Iryani dan ilustrator nya yang gak kalah hacep tuh Puty Puar. Gue udah kepo instagram doi dan emang doodles nya ucul ucul bet. Buku ini gak kalah hits karena ada instagramnya jugakkk :") @365ideasofhappiness sama kaya judulnya. Gue gak di endorse padahal tapi emang sukak banget secara sekilas gue liat liat tuh udah suka.

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Haiiii whatssup guys! *intro* Welcome back! Jadi kali ini aku, asik aku, mau nyeritain satu harian aku ini tuy ngaps aja haha. Sesuatu yang patut aku kilas ulang soalnya. Berawal dari bangun pagi yang siang (around 8am) terus ngecek handphone. Yang seperti biasa gak ada chat dari Riancul wqwq :)) eyyy engga ding, biasanya kalo Riancul yang bangun duluan, dia sukanya nelfon. Terus pas nelfon aku omelin. "Riancul ngapain sih nelfon ah" // "Ngapain lagi nih. Cila bangun kamu gak shubuhan" Yagituddey suka gaje emang, kan masih belum sadar gitu huhu jadinya dikira Riancul gangguin aku bubski :". 

Ok next. Bangun tidur gue (eh ini sok asik aja ya, bebas mau aku apa gue huahaha) bersihin kamar sebisanya. Ngitungin uang buat jaket KKN yang kebetulan untuk Desa gue, gue yang koordinir. Abis itu kepikiran untuk buat jebakan Riancul karena belum bangun. Dengan belum mandinya, gue ke warung wkwk beli beli rahasia. Iyap rahasia. Terus di kosan gue minta waktu 30 menit sebelum Riancul datang untuk menemani gue sarapan. Dan pas Riancul tiba... Doi terlihat senang, hehe, walau gue sebenernya malu ngelakuin ini. Terus aku difoto Riancul yang katanya jago foto itulowhh. Ini hasilnya..

Bagus kan gue nya :))) jago bet fotonya yah. Fokusnya itu loh haha. Tapi gpp asal doi seneng gue ikutan seneng. Eh enak. Iya gak? Setelah itu... pulang. Gue di kosan ngapain ya, semacam gak penting siih ini. Terus sore nya jam 4 gue minta Riancul untuk nemenin gue beli cable protector "Cila kok tumben mau beli cable protector?" // "Sebenernya itu alasan ajasih biar bisa jalan sama Riancul". Sekilas percakapan kita waktu menaiki eskalator (eiscalator or whatever -_-) Dan ini hasilnya cable charger iphoe gue setelah gue lilit dikosan malemnya.

Lama yo itu ternyata dan gak cukup :") haha haha haha sampai gue chat si Lala "La gak cukup" terus dia bales "baryaws" udah gitu aja. Setelah kita dapet cable protector nya, kita makan, makan keju. Duduknya hadap-hadapan seperti kebanyakan orang-orang yang makan disana. "Orang-orang dudukny pada hadap-hadapan ya" Kata Cila ke Riandy. Eia Riancul pake long sleeve hitam, aku suka. FYI, Riancul itu kebalikan banget sama gue haha, gue pendiem, gue simple dan gak hyperactive, gue dewasa :))))) *dan abis ini keliatannya ada yang chat gue gak terima nih*. Selagi nunggu, seperti biasa pada gak mau saling kalah main handphone.

Taraaaaa. Hitam-hitam kaya mau dangdutan. Meanwhile gue dianggurin karena doi sibuk ngecek line wkwk. Gak ada obrolan penting karena kami sama-sama menikmati keju nya. Rata-rata hanya obrolan basa basi yang berujung dengan tawa tawa pecah nan gaje dari gue. "Eh Riancul diliat liat mirip Bena Kribo yang sekarang udah gak kribo ya #eyakkk". Eh hashtagnya salah, #oyakkk. Udahannya ke toko buku beli komik bulanannya si bocah ini :) sayangnya komiknya gak sempet gue foto. Ditengah keasikan liat-liat buku sendiri, tiba-tiba menemukan buku eyecatching yang gue bilang diatas ituwwww. Dan tiap ada buku yang mengenai 'bahagia' selalu keinget multiplechat geng gue. Alhasil Riancul juga tertarik dan dia mau beliin dulu :)) bukunya asik. Bisa dicoret-coret. Bukunya buat kita yak Riancul <3 bukunya udah aku coret-coret duluannnn yaw hihi

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Hari ini intinya menyenangkan. So does hari-hari kemarin dan hari-hari lainnya. Karena kebahagiaan itu dibuat sendiri, yakans?